I can’t stand being around anyone at the moment, everything annoys me. Every little thing frustrates me. I get annoyed so easily, I don’t understand what’s wrong. But it’s how I feel. UGH!
I feel guilty about absolutely everything. Constantly. My mind works over time to make me feel like shit. I’M SORRY!
Everyday I say ‘I’m fine’, I put on a grin and bear it. But every day I die a little on the inside, and don’t understand why I feel this way. I try to think of happier things, but I always end up feeling worse. Because something inside tells me that i’ll never have those things, and it feels like i’ve been hit by a curse. More than anything I want to be happy, to not feel this way anymore. To be able to smile a true smile and not the fake one that is painted on each day. I’m sick of feeling unwanted, even though so many people love me. My mind has been destroyed by the way I feel and everyone who has helped destroy me.
I just want to be happy.
Remember when the worst thing a boy could say to you was that you smelt bad. When you used to be able to play happily and never have to worry about anything. When your best friend always held your hand and gave you the sweetest hugs if you cried. When you didn’t have to worry about being hurt or growing up.
Remember when you were a kid & you were the happiest you have ever been.